when LIFE being unfair!

I am trapped inside myself
I locked the door
And I have lost the key
Now I am as guilty as a where

There's no way out this time
Surrounded by memories & tortured dreams
Hopeless thoughts and make believes
Dying inside my heart silently screams

Cant anyone hear my cries?
Doesn't anyone give a damn?
Maybe this was my destiny
To lead a life, a life of sham

Oh I am a failure by design
There's nothing here for me
So why do I even bother?
It only takes a bullet to flee

They say suicide is for cowards
But now I am asking you this
Do you have the balls to hold a gun
And end your own abyss?

Why lead a life of misery
A life of disappointments and regrets
Drowning in your own mistakes
Barely getting by with cigarettes

There's no point in living a lie
If you have to fake a smile everyday
And pretend everything is perfect
When in reality nothing is okay