hate myself!

I hate myself when I can't control my anger
I hate myself because I can't hide my feelings
I hate myself when he felt tired with me
but he does not show it off.
I hate myself when he said he was useless
I hate myself when I get jealous
I hate myself when I can't give him the happiness
I hate myself when I can't give him even a smile
if something came out.
I hate myself because he does not know what I really wanted
I hate myself when I give him thousands trouble coz I'm a troublemaker.
I hate myself when I am not as what as he expected.
I hate myself when he get angry
I hate myself when I make him sad
and I really hate myself coz I was so in love with him!