stay alive.

Every second, every hour and every day. I keep comforting myself.

I keep telling myself 'Be strong, Seha. be strong'

I tried to kill all the sadness, all the pain inside me with curve of smiles.. eventho' it's fake

I tried to not to look anything that reminds me of him.

I hate myself coz I can't even lie to myself that I'm really happy

as I lie to people around me.

I really hate myself...

I hate when people say 'u are strong, seha. I know u can do it'

plss. I don't want that. All I want to hear is

'I know it's hurt. but everything's gonna be okay' with a tight-hug.

I know I'm doing good right now. coz I have friends that understand me here.

but no one knows

There's something inside me.. like a burden.

it's killing me lit by lit.. swear to God, it's really hurt.

I just want let it go. as I let him go from my life.

"Please be strong, seha.

I know it's hurt but everything's gonna be okay

Hugs and kiss :')" - seha said to me.