a flower without the petals.

After all things happened I just saw ME in this life.

not US.

what happened last night was a nightmare. really like a repeat-nightmare. people say that what is important in a relationship is a TRUST. but I don't think that the TRUST is an important thing anymore. coz u know what, it's already gone. hurm, memang susah nak cover yang bende ni bile ia betul2 dah hilang dalam diri kita. pe yang terjadi semalam memang salah aku sebab dengar cakap orang yang tak betul. tapi bende tu seakan-akan menguji aku sejauh mane tahap kepercayaan yang tinggal dalam diri aku. n I found that it's ZERO. i'm sorry. its not like i'm being cruel to you but i'm trying to be honest. memang aku salah tapi tolong lah. everyone has their own bad time kan? aku tengah exam, tengah stress tinggal sorang2. I just need a lit bit attention from someone and it's YOU.

yes hanya aku je yang memerlukan perhatian selama ni. hanya kau je yang nak kene bagi perhatian. honestly every night aku pujuk diri ni 'biar lah die keluar, tak salah' and it's work. memang tak salah, aku tak halang. tapi sometimes tu yela I admit that I'm not honestly give the permission but hell yeah I don't have right to stop you from doing things you like. seha kau ni memang asek nak sedih2 tension2 , tu asek orang nak kene teman kau je. sigh menyampah !

well, i'm sorry to all readers. seha is really really in a bad mood right now. uncontrolled emotion. seha, tolong la sedar kau tu nak exam isnin ni. bersabar sket 2 paper je lagi. bertungkus lumus la sementara ada masa lagi (padahal bole update blog lak lagi). erm aku tanak jadi cam taon lepas. exam aku tunggang langgang. oh at least aku tak salah kan sesape pasal aku tak dapat result yang bagus. cume aku ngadu je tak dapat buat exam tu je. tu lah masalah kau seha, too dependent on him! but still i'm an independent person okey. kalau tak, aku takkan bole survive hidup sorang-sorang kat unimas ni yang jaoh dari segala2 nya.

well, after every single things happened between us I believe that we'll be together again. but still need some space to MUHASABAH DIRI sket. yet I still believe in God. I pray and I hope every little thing happened today will make me become a stronger person next day. n I believe that everything happen for a reason. He give the DUGAAN to certain person who can handle it, right? THANK GOD i'm still have that feeling. feeling to love him. :)

hey you! yes you! please take care there at muadzam. and have a good life. good bye :)