Me versus you.

Keep holding on for too long doesn't mean I don't hurt. It also doesn't mean I'm weak. Sometimes what I need is someone who can read my mind and hug me then tell me 'I know you are hurting and everything's gonna be okay' .

Sometimes I feel like giving up on everything. Loving you. Waiting you to change. Waiting you to realize what I've done for you so far, how hard I tried to keep our relationship in a stable stage, how hurt I am to swallow all lies you gave to me but after all I still be able to put smiles on my face :) *unfortunately, you never realize.

Ignoring the truth I saw and keep telling myself that you will change someday doesn't mean I'm not dying inside. People says life offers you a second chance to see what's going to happen tomorrow. I believe I should give you that. In case you care, this is not a second chance for you, I don't know maybe it's the 9th or 10th chance I give you? What I need is you realize that I'm trying hard to keep this relationship from breaking. Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward time just to see if in the end it's all worth it.

The reason why I keep holding on to you, keeping US until now is because I believe I can fix my passed from happening over again. I did mistake once when I let 'him' go from my life. I never regret about how our relationship ended in fact I do believe that was how life's way of teaching me to move on. As we has 3 choices in life either we give up, give in or give it our all and after all I choose to give my all. You should thanks him by letting me go coz if he didn't we'd never be together.

I don't know how long I can be as strong as now, how long I can keep being me who love you and how far our relationship can go. I know I may be not your first love but I wish I'll be the last one for you. As long as you don't give up, I'll give in. Forget all the reasons why it won't work and believe the one reason why it will.

I believe sometimes a fight saves a relationship where silence breaks it. I'm speaking up for my heart, so later I won't have regrets :)